I hav going through one of the hardest seasons of my life but I'm not just gonna make it through, I'm coming out shining! If this experience has taught me nothing, it has shown me that nothing in life will ever stop me from reaching my dreams or goals. Yeah, I may have a temporary setback or something that slows me down, but as long as I stay positive and keep moving forward I WILL WIN- and you will too... DON'T GIVE UP!
This week has been one of the most trying weeks I have had in a while. It all started when I missed my flight in Chicago to come back to Baltimore. I went to the wrong airline twice, a woman in line tried to fight me, after our plane played hopscotch in the sky and had the WORST landing I have ever experienced in life, we sat on the tarmac for an hour and a half waiting on a lightening strike to pass. Oh and then I had to drive through a torrential down pour from DC back to Baltimore in the middle of the night.
The next day I experienced a health scare that I was ultimately rushed to the ER for. With my background of basically living in the hospital and rehab centers for the past two years, the emergency room was THE LAST PLACE I wanted to be. When I realized there was no other choice and that I had to go, I nearly lost it.
It seemed as if all my hard work of getting my leg back together, learning to walk in heels again, getting casted in a fashion show, rebuilding my life and brand was all in vain. For the first time in a long time I cried.
I cried because, "Literally God, why you even play me like this? Why would you bring me this far in my journey just to let me fall" I thought? "What about my dreams of ripping the runway? What about my goals of taking my nonprofit to the next level, What about the FlyyGirl events that I want to curate? What about my podcast? What about me?"
What I realized in my anger and sorrow was that regardless of the situation- God has always been in control and EVERYTHING ((and I do mean everything)) has ALWAYS worked out for my good. All the pain I have gone through has had a purpose. If it wasn't for the accident that I was in two years ago I never would have started the FlyyGirl Adventures brand which has led to my mentorship organization FlyyGirl Fly, the Boss Bar Podcast, or launched my modeling career.
The car accident I was in led me to my purpose and ultimately rescued me from a 7 year dead end relationship that was literally sucking the life out of me. Many people don't know this but my ex was driving the car when the accident happened and after the initial emergency room visit, I didn't see him til 6 months later.
When he initially left me in the hospital after the accident, I felt so hurt and betrayed, because I had built my whole world around this person. My heart was broken and I cried every single day for the next few months.
Looking back I see that it all had a purpose. That relationship held me back from following my dreams. Now that I truly know who I am,no one will ever devalue, mistreat or manipulate me again.
We have to realize that our words shape our world. Life and death lies in the tongue. When I was at the emergency room last week, negative thoughts like, "You are gonna be stuck in the hospital all over again this summer" "You did all this work of rebuilding your life, and now look where you are" came to mind.
Even though all these negative thoughts were coming my way about missing out on my dreams, I kept repeating to myself, " You are the head and not the tail Destiny, You are above and not beneath, You are blessed in the city and in the field, You CAN and you WILL get through this situation Destiny, just stay positive!" Would you know, in a matter of hours,everything that I said came to pass...
After I left the emergency room on Monday I officially launched my modeling website and committed myself to working out and perfecting my walk each and every day. Although I have a long way to go, I see SO MUCH PROGRESS and it will only get better and better and better. I WILL reach all my dreams and goals because I will never give up. The trials and tribulations that I have been through have only made me stronger.
This weekend I will be will be walking in the Bold Curves Island Infusion Fashion Show in Maryland, I will be competing in the Miss Fashion Global Pageant in August and I have already been casted for a fashion show in Philadelphia during Philadelphia Fashion Week.
Despite all the things that have come against me, I have gotten up time after time and proven that I have what it takes to reach my goals. No matter what life may throw your way if you remain positive and count it all joy... YOU WILL WIN! BELIEVE DAT!
