After spending most of last year hiding my gifts, I decided to reacquaint myself with my dreams and commit to bringing them back to life again. This post will be both a reflection and a celebration of that one time when I finally decided to get my life together!
A midlife crisis is the best way I could describe it. After winning the title of Miss Fashion Global, being casted to walk at NYFW, and building a successful brand that was finally catching some steam, I gave it all up. What started with the casual, "Oh I don't model anymore", or "I am on a social media hiatus right now" slowly morphed into a deep depression.
I wasn't performing at the high level I was used to functioning at most of my life and because of that, I felt like a failure. My motivation and sense of purpose was gone; I allowed the hopes & dreams I had to be cast to the wind. Almost a year later, they thankfully found their way back to me.
It was the smile that my grandmother wore when she told me she was proud of me, the tried and true love from my mother, and the watchful eyes of my sisters that didn't let me sink when I felt like all hope was lost.
In those times that I didn’t even believe in my own ability it was friends like Twanita of BossUp Magazine, Donte from Wise Hustlers and Nyemade of That African Butterfly who believed in me enough to push onward through their grind.
Finding my way back to myself has been a roller coaster ride filled with ups and downs, highs and lows but it is an adventure that I would choose again and again. No matter how many times I have to start over again, I will never ever give up on myself... and you shouldn't give up on yourself either.